I have a love/hate relationship with online dating. I love going on dates, especially first dates. Meeting a new person, having interesting conversation and learning what they like and dislike, hearing fun stories and ultimately seeing if there’s a mutual attraction. It’s fun – when you get to go on one. But at the same time, I hate how much work dating has become as I’ve gotten older. If you want to be successful at it, you almost have to treat it like a second job. You have to put lots of effort into finding people you’re compatible with, and even if you’re successful circumstances may arise that disrupt your chances.
Dating, at its base level, is about finding out two things about the person you’re with. First, you’re seeing if you have enough in common that you want to spend a lot of your time hanging out with them. Second, you’re seeing if you have enough attraction to them that you want to see them naked. That’s it – that’s what a date is trying to determine. If you’re only looking for the first option, you’re probably on Meetup. If you’re only looking for the second option, you’re probably on Tinder. If you’re looking for both at the same time, you’re probably on a date.
In high school (and college to a degree – pun intended) that’s all that matters. You’re not worried about things like financial troubles or job opportunities or alimony payments or scary relatives. If you like hanging out and you want to have lots of sex, you end up dating – pimples and all. Pretty easy.
People that fall into serious relationships during this time are extraordinarily lucky, because as you go from teenagehood to adulthood, you get to grow together as a couple. You sort through all those difficult problems that arise, like “Holy shit, I have to pay how much to keep the water going?!” But you’re doing it as a unit and it bonds you. By the time serious problems develop (Crippling student loan debt, job opportunities in weird-ass places, serious health issues, and having a kid are all good examples) you’ve bonded and gone through things together and know that the person you’re with is worth the trouble. Or these problems break you apart, and then you end up back in the dating pool AFTER the honeymoon period of school and the infinite possibilities of sex are over.
Because as you get older, you start to weigh more things in your evaluations of potential partners. Having a lot in common and wanting to see them naked is still the base desire, but life starts creeping in and making your tastes a lot more discerning. At sixteen, a young woman likes the same movies as this cute guy, they develop interest and start dating seriously. At thirty, the same woman may think the guy is cute and they may enjoy the same movies, but she’s also worried about that ex-wife of his that’s sort of looney tunes, and the fact that he still seriously thinks his garage band’s going to make it big, and oh by the way can he borrow $100 for gas money for a road trip to Vegas.
So these serious problems that were bonding moments between couples that got started earlier end up being “baggage” for people on the dating scene later. You have crippling student loans? Well, I have good credit so us dating may not work out. You have a kid? Well, I am allergic to kids so bye. Not actually my opinion – I love kids. But I hope you get my point.
It’s especially difficult in the online age because you have a glut of information about the people you’re looking at, especially on some dating websites. I would routinely find people that seemed interesting at first glance, but two minutes with their dating profile and I would find at least one thing that made me go “Nope.” Now some things I found were actually good of me to know ahead of time, for example casual racism. I didn’t want to go out on dates with racists! That’s nice to find out about before making the mistake of messaging them. But a decent number were just me being too damn picky and finding reasons NOT to be interested.
And that’s a big issue that’s crept up, at least for me personally. See in this day and age, you can get exactly what you want pretty much whenever you want it. Do you want sushi delivered to your door? There’s an app for that. You want a guy to dress up in a ketchup bottle and dance for an hour? There’s probably an app for that too…somewhere. The point is, people in the modern age are teaching themselves more and more that they should get exactly 100% what they want. And it seeps into dating – if you find that one flaw in a person, it’s not charming and it isn’t something to work through as partners. Instead it’s a reason to try a new profile and see if you can find a better “match.”
A few weeks ago I decided to delete/discontinue all my dating apps/profiles/whatever online because I was just so damn tired. It was exhausting trying to discern who I wanted to send messages to, trying to come up with witticisms that made me seem more interesting than I actually am after swiping right, doing all that stuff. I wasn’t doing it because I wanted to anymore, I was simply doing it out of reflex because I felt like I should be doing it. And since I’ve removed myself from that particular dating pool I haven’t regretted it at all. It’s good to be free of that insane pickiness I found myself having about any possible date.
Maybe love is just around the corner for me. But in more likelihood, it probably isn’t. For now I’m just going to enjoy my life and stop trying to hunt down the perfect partner. And I’m okay with that.